Here we go again...

On a totally unrelated note, I guess today was my "day off" so to speak. How lucky. I got to suffer from an excruciating migraine that had me sleeping most of the afternoon in order to get the day off. Ironically, it was still relaxing and the migraine, which started last night, lasted until about 6pm.

If you've been reading my previous posts, don't get me wrong. I am VERY glad my mom is home. Things have been very stressful, but my mom has always been my best friend; seeing her suffer was awful and her being away for two months was a very lonely time for me and for her. So I am hoping that things will calm down once most of this initial stuff is taken care of.

She seems to be acclimating to being home again and her mobility is improving quite well. So you'd think I'd be relieved that she is healthy again. But that is not the case. A few weeks ago, while she was still in the Skilled Nursing facility, I got a call from her doctor's assistant. She told me that while my mom was in the medical hospital, in one of the plethora of tests they did on her, they found a cyst on her ovary and want to do an ultrasound to look at it. I don't understand...over a month after she left the hospital they JUST NOW want to look at it? It's not like they JUST did the x-rays. What were the doctors doing? Just sitting around one day thinking, "Hey, we've got nothing better to do, let's look at some of our former patients' records and see what we can find."

So I made an appointment for my mom to get the ultrasound, but she was still in the SNF when it came up, so I had to cancel it and it is now scheduled for Monday. Of course I am worried and scared. This can be a big deal, or it can be nothing. *I* have a cyst on one my ovaries. I don't know how long it has been there, but it started bothering me when I was in my late teens. The first time I felt the pain, I was afraid that it was appendicitis and my parents took me to the ER. After about 2 or 3 hours of lying in an ER bed with I think only a urine test performed on me, I was told, "Go see a gynecologist."

So when I got checked out, I was told that there was nothing to worry about; that the cyst would flare up around the time of my period (it's okay to read about this stuff guys, you don't have to cringe or get all grossed out), but otherwise it didn't look like anything serious. Low and behold, a few days later, my period arrived. And yup, every time I got my period or the week before, it would hurt, sometimes pretty bad...kind of like a sharp yet dull pain that would come and go...hard to describe really. All I could do was take ibuprofen and deal.

So every year at my "female exam" I get a clean bill of health. I still worry about it but I guess if it were something serious, I probably would either be getting chemo or radiation, or not be here anymore. It is not as bad as it used to be, but it's still there.

So I'm hoping that this is the case with my mom. However, she's never had any pain like I have. While she was in the hospital there was some mention of a possible problem with one of her ovaries...a mass or tumor of some kind, which I think I mentioned somewhere in this blog, so why didn't they investigate it further THEN? I can't remember the name of it, but it ended with "oma," which is the suffix for something cancerous. I guess they were more concerned about her leg, kidney, and gall bladder. Still, they shouldn't have let her go until this was taken care of as well.

But the worries don't stop there. The assistant who called me also told me that the doctors found some abnormality or some enlargement or something or another affecting my mom's heart. I think she mentioned something about her aorta. BUT she said the doctor didn't see the need for her to have it an x-ray of it until September. SEPTEMBER? WHY??? Being Jessica, I didn't ask why, I just said okay and made the appointment. I always act now and think later. I'm always the "Yes man." I hate that. I haven't told my mom about it yet. She has enough to worry about right now.

So anyway, my mom got her kidney and gall bladder out, and her leg is healed for the most part. I thought she was out of the woods but apparently not yet. What next?

Her appointment is on Monday. Please keep my mom in your thoughts. This is just so unfair to her.