I Never Thought This Would Be My First Blog Entry...

I don't know where to begin. So, Ill just say hello. Initially, when I thought about posting my first blog entry, I was just going to give a little introduction and a few words telling everyone what I intended to write about. I was NOT going to get overly personal. I almost didn't think I would ever write a blog. I think I've been on Myspace since October 2005, but never wrote anything. I thought blogging was pretty silly and that the term egocasting was the perfect way to describe a blog. Who cares about what I think or what I do every day?

I was going to post mostly topical stuff about the world, not about my life. But what has been happening over the past week influenced me to share what has been going on in my life. I guess because you never know what can happen to those you love...that life is fragile and it should be appreciated; that you should spend more time with those that you love; that you should take care of yourself and make sure you take care of your loved ones; that you really don't know who your friends are until you are in a time of crisis. And most of all, that you can't take ANYTHING for granted in this world.

So the following is VERY long post about what my past week has been like. Actually this sums up the past few months. I started writing it as a diary and it has been pretty cathartic. However, for some reason I felt the need to share it...not for sympathy or attention or to whine, just for...for me I guess, and for my mom. And for all of you as kind of a lesson I guess? Or a reality check? A wake-up call? Just something to ponder, to make you appreciate your life and the lives of those you love. And that one single event can change your WHOLE LIFE and make you a completely different person, doing things you never thought you could have done, showing you that you have more strength than you thought you could ever have. For a long time I've been keeping this to myself and only immediate family know anything about it. But I think its eating me up inside and I have to let it out.

So I'll do separate posts, one about each day, instead of writing it all in one long entry. Even though it will be long at times, I implore you to read it and really think about life and how important every breath is. This past week has been a real wake-up call for me. I think after all of these years, I have finally started to become a grown up.

So I am pretty much writing about something extremely personal...which I did NOT intend to do here. Those of you on my friends list know me pretty well, and those who don't will have to check out my "About Me" link, because this space was going to be used to introduce myself a little more, but now it is for something I never thought I'd have to write.